This post is different from others in many ways. First, the title is only one word long. Second, it's more about me than anything else. Third, it isn't really a rant... not yet anyway. :P
The reason for the title is that I find I have changed. And not just in appearance, but in the way I am. Or rather, the way I think, the way I act (okay, maybe not so much the way I act, but still..!).
One thing that has apparently changed is that I am a very quiet person. I don't say much, save to certain people whom I know extremely well. It's very rare that I'll engage in conversation with someone, even online, where I spend a lot of my time, although I do chat quite a bit more there than IRL.
To me, it seems I'm a completely different person than I was 6+ years ago. Of course, that's a given, considering I AM 16 now and was 10 then. Still, am I so different that I could be an entirely new entity? I have changed identities online from time to time, changing my habits to suit - but to the point that I forget myself? I don't think this could be possible.
Regarding my quietness, I apparently used to talk quite a bit more, even to random strangers, when I was younger. Now, I don't talk to anyone much at all. Obviously when we're young like that we'll babble to anyone who will - or won't, even - listen. But still, you'd think I would retain /some/ social traits...
Since I rarely get out much, something that's starting to change, I haven't had much social contact with anyone other than a few select people. Being home schooled for most of my life is probably one of the reasons. As I gradually became more accustomed to being at home instead of a school, I took less interest in doing things outside of my home life. I secluded myself to my house, rarely going out anywhere. I became a hermit, so to speak.
So now, I think it's time to loosen up. I need to get out there, do things. I've already started to broaden my list of things to do. I'm a puppeteer. I've just came back from NYC. I try to talk more than I usually do.
Will this help? Only time will tell...
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- Vertimyst™
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- I am Vertimyst. I am Light. I am Shadow. I am a Canadian computer nerd. I'm a teen that enjoys writing, and computers in general. I'm also a bit of an otaku (anime fan, into Japanese stuff in general). I do a bit of programming, mostly in C++. I also do server administration, with my Ubuntu box, where my website is hosted. I also provide hosting to others as well.
2 comments:
The fourth way this post differs is that it uses the word 'entity', wheras I don't think any of your others have done so ;]
'hem!
I think I know what you mean, having been in somewhat of a similar situation myself. Or maybe even 'being', lol
When I think of the subject of personal change, I find it's always good to remember that, although things do change naturally, in reality, how you are is determined by you alone; if you don't like it, go and change it
On the other hand, be aware that not all natural change is evil, so it's really a sort of balance, methinks
Hmm, yeah, but what this post was geared toward was more the fact that I'm a very... anti-social person(?) now, definitely more so than I used to be. This direction in the post was highly unintentional, so it did indeed become a rant of sorts. :P
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